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ROXY: john!
JOHN: i'm glad you've been happy roxy, you've done so well for yourself.
JOHN: but... that doesn't change the fact that none of you are good people.
JADE: because youre so great???????
JOHN: no, not at all!
JOHN: that's my point, i only had like half a foot in my own kid's life for ten years!
JOHN: and i was a real jerk to you guys.
JOHN: ugh, i even emotionally cheated on my wife.
ROXY: exsqueeze me?
JOHN: and honestly i don't even know how old she was.
JAKE: Dude.
JOHN: though to be fair, roxy, you were probably emotionally cheating on me with your alien girlfriend too?
JOHN: so maybe it wasn't that bad.
JOHN: i mean, obviously it's bad.
JOHN: but.
JOHN: we could have talked about polyamory or something?
KARKAT: JOHN.
KARKAT: NOBODY ACTUALLY WANTS TO HEAR THIS SHIT.
JOHN: so right, karkat.
JOHN: literally all i'm trying to say is-
JOHN: i'm tired of being anxious and uncertain all the time.
JOHN: i want to feel like myself again!
JOHN: and i think the last time i did was when we were all in the game.
JOHN: that's when we were all at our best!
JOHN: right?
JADE: john!
JADE: WE ALL DIED!
JOHN: that didn't even happen to this you, don't pretend like any of that affected you!
JADE: of course it did!!!
JOHN: ??????
JADE: OH MY GOD.
JADE: no, no, fuck no, you dont get to do this again, john!
JADE: you cant just run away and try to erase everything to start over!
JOHN: i don't want to erase anything!
JOHN: i want to pick up what matters to us and find a way for us all to be happy!
JADE: by throwing us and all of our kids into a cosmic meat grinder?
JADE: what is that even going to accomplish???
JOHN: i mean, i don't know, SOMETHING important! vriska even said so!
JADE: who gives a fuck!?
JADE: john... this is what i mean.
JADE: you have no idea what it is you actually want, do you?
JADE: being happy to you is just chasing after whatever it is you dont already have.
JADE: and we know how that always turns out.
JOHN: what does THAT mean?
JADE: it means, john, that you're going to drag harry along on this big awful adventure and then, itll end!
JADE: and even assuming it ends well, he might get what, one good year with you?
JADE: maybe two?
JADE: until you get bored and angry and avoidant all over again, taking it out on him and pushing him away completely!
JOHN: that's not fair!
JOHN: i'm trying to change!
JADE: yeah, and who told you to do that????
JADE: its one thing to leave but dont come back only to break his heart!!!
JOHN: jade, what is it YOU want?
JOHN: do you you even like being here?
JOHN: don't you want to see dave again?