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ROXY: john!

JOHN: i'm glad you've been happy roxy, you've done so well for yourself.

JOHN: but... that doesn't change the fact that none of you are good people.

JADE: because youre so great???????

JOHN: no, not at all!

JOHN: that's my point, i only had like half a foot in my own kid's life for ten years!

JOHN: and i was a real jerk to you guys.

JOHN: ugh, i even emotionally cheated on my wife.

ROXY: exsqueeze me?

JOHN: and honestly i don't even know how old she was.

JAKE: Dude.

JOHN: though to be fair, roxy, you were probably emotionally cheating on me with your alien girlfriend too?

JOHN: so maybe it wasn't that bad.

JOHN: i mean, obviously it's bad.

JOHN: but.

JOHN: we could have talked about polyamory or something?

KARKAT: JOHN.

KARKAT: NOBODY ACTUALLY WANTS TO HEAR THIS SHIT.

JOHN: so right, karkat.

JOHN: literally all i'm trying to say is-

JOHN: i'm tired of being anxious and uncertain all the time.

JOHN: i want to feel like myself again!

JOHN: and i think the last time i did was when we were all in the game.

JOHN: that's when we were all at our best!

JOHN: right?

JADE: john!

JADE: WE ALL DIED!

JOHN: that didn't even happen to this you, don't pretend like any of that affected you!

JADE: of course it did!!!

JOHN: ??????

JADE: OH MY GOD.

JADE: no, no, fuck no, you dont get to do this again, john!

JADE: you cant just run away and try to erase everything to start over!

JOHN: i don't want to erase anything!

JOHN: i want to pick up what matters to us and find a way for us all to be happy!

JADE: by throwing us and all of our kids into a cosmic meat grinder?

JADE: what is that even going to accomplish???

JOHN: i mean, i don't know, SOMETHING important! vriska even said so!

JADE: who gives a fuck!?

JADE: john... this is what i mean.

JADE: you have no idea what it is you actually want, do you?

JADE: being happy to you is just chasing after whatever it is you dont already have.

JADE: and we know how that always turns out.

JOHN: what does THAT mean?

JADE: it means, john, that you're going to drag harry along on this big awful adventure and then, itll end!

JADE: and even assuming it ends well, he might get what, one good year with you?

JADE: maybe two?

JADE: until you get bored and angry and avoidant all over again, taking it out on him and pushing him away completely!

JOHN: that's not fair!

JOHN: i'm trying to change!

JADE: yeah, and who told you to do that????

JADE: its one thing to leave but dont come back only to break his heart!!!

JOHN: jade, what is it YOU want?

JOHN: do you you even like being here?

JOHN: don't you want to see dave again?