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JOHN: sorry. like i said, my "how to react to stuff" meter is completely fucked right now.

ROXY: thats fair bud

ROXY: real fast i do need to do a quick takeback of all that shit i said last time we talked about janey not being literally the most evil person we knew or whatever

ROXY: i guess i was hopped up on arguin or somethin since that was before we hit our conversational vibe bc of course u were right and i shoulda listened

ROXY: im just glad ur ok

ROXY: or like alive

JOHN: yeah, jury's still out on "ok" but, you know.

ROXY: ya

ROXY: u said ur house is gone??

JOHN: yep.

JOHN: completely.

ROXY: jeez

ROXY: i would ask how ur feelin but like the answer 2 that has got 2b "prtty bad"

JOHN: yeah.

JOHN: i mean.

JOHN: no?

JOHN: it's weird.

JOHN: it feels like it should be a bigger deal, I guess?

JOHN: like it's my HOUSE.

JOHN: but mostly it always felt like my dad's house?

JOHN: and when i started living there after i moved out of here, it was like i crammed myself back into whatever was left of my kid self?

JOHN: and it didn't feel good, but it at least was familiar, you know?

JOHN: like living there let me feel closer to my dad, trying to be like the way i remember him, or like how i remember him wanting me to be, or something?

JOHN: and i didn't realize how much i hated doing that until i saw it all go up in flames.

JOHN: so i guess i could have used my powers to stop the fire and save whatever was left of the place, but i couldn't bring myself to do it.

JOHN: like some fucked up part of me was glad i got there too late?

JOHN: so i just sat there, watching, trying to figure out why watching my house burn down felt like i was being released from prison.

JOHN: and even now i keep trying to explain it away, as though it's because of how fucked up everything else is that it made me feel good.

JOHN: but that's just bullshit.

JOHN: it DID feel good.

JOHN: i DO feel free.

JOHN: sorry.

ROXY: no need 2 apologize

ROXY: we just delved in2 my whole gender thing last time so it seems fine for u to have a turn

JOHN: i didn't say it was a gender thing.

ROXY: well no i just meant like i did some sharing

ROXY: like referrin 2 the topic i brought up when we chatted last

ROXY: but like now that u mention it

ROXY: *meaningful pause*

JOHN: ...

JOHN: i

JOHN:

ROXY: lol well we can move on 2 the favor part if youd rather

ROXY: stick a lil pin in that topic n come back 2 it when u have had sleep

ROXY: like i said the other day its not like this shits figureoutable in 1 sitting anyways

JOHN: yeah...

ROXY: sooooooo

ROXY: movin on

ROXY: dont be mad but theres a part of the house u didnt know abt the whole time u lived here

JOHN: what?

ROXY: yea

ROXY: i got a secret lair

ROXY: for my sciences

ROXY: and i get to it via a transportalizer underneath our bed

ROXY: which is 2 heavy 2 move by my lonesome so i just needed to borrow some o your aforementioned powers of wind

ROXY: so if u dont mind woosh away

JOHN: uh ok, well...

JOHN: a secret science lair, sure, i can deal with that.

JOHN: why not!

JOHN: it doesn't work out great when i do the windy thing indoors, though.

ROXY: aight then no wind bending just use your mangrit

ROXY: ok or just like push when i push

ROXY: we both got sick muscles

ROXY: no other adjectives necessary

JOHN: yeah ok.

ROXY: on 3?